In last week’s post, my wife, Yupin, described her experience of immigrating from tropical Thailand to falling in love with skiing at Jay Peak, a journey both geographical and spiritual in nature. Along the way, I have been her guide, convincing her that sub-zero temperatures are insignificant—“We just need to buy the right clothes”—and that skiing is well worth the 5-7 hour drive as often as possible. We both agreed that it would make a lot more sense for her to actually learn skiing from professional instructors. At first my line of “I don’t want to teach you any of my bad habits” sometimes seemed like an excuse to sneak off into the glades by myself for the morning, but as I thought more about it, I realized that I really don’t know how to teach skiing. Now we don’t even think about lessons—they’ve become an automatic part of our ski routine. Yupin goes off with her small group and instructor for the mornings, then we meet for lunch, and in the afternoons she shows me everything that she has learned. It was during one of these lessons, with an instructor named Danny, that all the trouble began for me, or at least for my surprisingly fragile skier’s ego.
On the first day of our March vacation, we dropped Luke off at ski school with Phil, then I left Yupin at the instructor pit near the magic carpet with an instructor named Danny, a friendly guy of about my father’s age who has this aura of experience, like he’s been teaching folks to ski for years. It’s not quite a 1,000-yard-stare, but you know it when you see it. Confident that they would have a great morning together, I shoved off for the Flyer.
There wasn’t a ton of snow that day; we had missed a recent dump and then it had rained. The woods looked crunchy and uninviting. I decided to head over to Stateside and rip the black cruisers. Maybe the sun would come out and soften the bumps on UN or Kitz. If I got really lucky, the woods might even be up to my standards of safety (???) by my last pre-lunch run. But after a few runs, I came to accept that the moguls were still as hard as the Rav-4’s in the parking lot; I headed to the red Bonny chair for a little Can Am “Supertrail” action. I found some softer bumps down at the bottom and played for awhile before I realized that I better make my way back to the Tram base to meet up with Yupin. On my way down, taking Goat Run to Exhibition, I saw her with Danny. He was explaining something. I was surprised to see her up so high—all of her previous lessons had been on the lower lifts. I skied over, beaming with pride and excitement that she had graduated to the upper mountain. We would no longer have to confine our afternoons to Interstate or Raccoon Run. We’ll be skiing black diamonds together before I know it. The plan was all coming together to perfection.
I coasted up to Yupin and her instructor expecting a bit of pleasant banter, but after a quick hello, Danny said, “We have to work on your turns.” He wasn’t talking to my wife. I was like, “Say what? My turns?” but I said nothing. He went on about something “round” and how Yupin looks up to me as a “role model.” Then he turned back to his job of teaching her. I just stood there, dumbfounded. How could he possibly have judged my skiing just from my approach? Maybe I had hit a patch of ice and that had made my form look bad. That had to be it. After all, I’m an expert skier, or at least advanced, right? I mean, I’ve been downhill skiing for what, 25 years already. I grew up in the Northeast Kingdom and went to school at Boulder for crying out loud. There’s nothing wrong with my turns. I can’t remember ever, in my whole life, feeling insecure about my skiing ability.
The excuses and rationalizations kept shouting in my head with the hostility of talk radio, and by the time I reached the bottom of Exhibition and slid into line at the Flyer for one last run to silence all this nonsense—and screw it if I’m a couple minutes late for lunch—I had wound myself up into a lather. I mean, I worked for Jay Peak for a winter back in 1997-98 and skied like every freakin day in every condition on every part of the mountain. But then a tiny little voice piped up: “What if Danny’s right? Isn’t this why you send Yupin and Luke to lessons in the first place? Because you don’t know how to teach and you don’t want to pass on any bad habits you might have?” By the time I reached the cold part of the lift, where you pass over the Everglade, a full-fledged war was raging in my brain. And my furious breakneck descent did nothing to bring about a truce.
It wasn’t until later that night, after Luke had gone to sleep, that I finally talked to Yupin about my crisis. “We saw you from the red chair,” she explained. “Danny said you were scraping your turns.”
“It was icy,” I said after a pause. “Everyone scrapes and slides on ice.”
She shrugged her eyebrows. “Yeah. Everyone else was scraping, too.”
Then she fell easily to sleep. For hours, I tossed, listening to the wind whistling across the lake and around the eaves. “All right,” I finally decided. “I’ll take a damned lesson.” Now, I think I’ve taken two or three lessons since I first began skiing, back in the winter of 1983/84, when I had Police and Def Leppard stickers plastered all over my Trapper Keeper, and my school, Craftsbury Academy, sent a group of us up to Burke. Then, when I was in college, at Boulder, my friend’s father bought me a lesson at Vail. Maybe I took one at Stowe, too, my junior year in high school, but I’m not sure. Point is, I’m a self-taught skier for the most part. I’ve picked up techniques over the years by skiing with people who are better than I am, and my most extreme friend, Marta, taught me jump turns at Snowmass. But I don’t recall a single thing an instructor ever told me.
When I announced at breakfast that I would be taking a lesson, Yupin laughed, not really at me, but at the whole situation. Luke was simply delighted. “We’re all taking lessons today, Daddy!” Yes, I conceded, we were. And for most of the drive up the mountain, I tried to keep an open mind. The other parts of the ride, I just tried to blank it all out. Because when you believe a certain self-truth for so long only to find that maybe you’ve been mistaken, you feel a bit exposed. Naked.
After dropping Luke off in ski school and listening to him chirp, “Have fun in your lesson, Daddy!” I slunk my way upstairs to the lessons desk. I scanned the room to make sure no one I knew was watching. I mumbled and whispered my way through the transaction, “Advanced…Type 3…Maybe learn to ski the parks?” Then I trudged to the instruction pit outside, with Yupin—not to drop her off, but to meet my very own instructor. When I saw Danny, I smiled sheepishly and announced that I had taken his advice and signed up. It was a classic moment of: “Fine, Dad, have it your damned way,” but I tried to cover it by asking, as contritely as possible, “What was that you were saying about my turns being too round?”
“No,” he said pleasantly. “I’d like to see your turns be rounder. You’re scraping them.”
Ahh, I thought. So round is good. Now at least I had a frame of reference. Just about then, my instructor walked up and introduced himself as Spoon. John Witherspoon. He was about my age, laid back, with an easy confidence. I was starting to relax, to stop worrying that someone might see me taking a lesson. Spoon said, “So you want to do a little park skiing? Well, we’ll see who else is in the group. In the meantime, we can go right over here to this box.” As he led me over to the magic carpet and explained how to balance on the box, I admitted why I had really signed up: to fix my turns so I could set a better example for my wife and son. “No problem,” he said. “We’ll work some on technique, maybe play around in the trees, and then hit a park if we still have time.”
We never did hit a park. And that was fine. Because I discovered on the little box by the magic carpet that I’m not sure I’m really ready for that. I might just leave the half-pipes and rails and all to my son, if he so desires. But what I really learned was that I’m not, by any means, an expert skier. Advanced, sure. I’m confident that I can make it down most anything at Jay Peak, which I think says a lot; John Witherspoon, on the other hand, raced professionally for years and just might be the best skier I’ve ever met. As I found out later, on a Google search, he finished 5th in the U.S. Freeskiing Nationals at Snowbird in 2007, and this was just one of his many achievements. I wanted to hire him for the entire day, to teach me everything he knew, but it didn’t take him long to revolutionize my approach to skiing. He taught me that a ski turn has two parts, and that I had always just done the second half—hence, my flat, slamming turns. Suddenly, for the first time in 25 years, I was starting to ski the right way. For most people, including Yupin, who learn to ski from professional instructors, it’s no revelation that a turn begins with a slight shift of the upper ski and develops into an S-shape—nice and, in Danny’s word, “round.”
After a just one run with Spoon, my entire outlook on skiing had changed. It didn’t take long to retrain my brain and make the necessary adjustments, but I spent all the rest of our vacation practicing the new technique. I realized that while sometimes I had turned properly by accident, it’s a much smoother ride when you intentionally carve pretty S-turns. And it does feel easier on the knees when you’re not smashing V’s down the mountain. Now I could recognize when I was scraping; I could then make corrections. I developed a theory that the reason I had always turned incorrectly had to do with starting off as a cross country skier, where I hadn’t had edges. Since alpine skiing had come so easily to me back in eighth grade, I had never seen the need to develop proper form. It took bringing my family into the sport for me to finally see my error. And though I had fumed initially, this tasty piece of humble pie has given me the opportunity to both improve my own skiing and to help my wife and son advance as skiers. Spoon had assured me that my mistake of slamming my turns was common, which made me feel less foolish, but by that point all the resistance that my ego had thrown up—“How dare Danny criticize my form!”—had softened like the sun-warmed snow in the glades. He taught me there’s no shame in taking a lesson; I think I’ll sign up for two this season. I’ll be glad I did when it comes time for me to keep up with my family.